too much stuff. there is only one
neti, neti, not me
in the beginning was the word and the word was with God and the word was God
in the beginning God made man with the word who did not know the word until eating from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, which is duality, which is variety, which is labels, which is language, which is the word, which is God. yes, God is one and all, which is every word, which is every thing. poor man knows some things and not all, gets caught in the some, gets caught in the goodness and evilness. poor man wanted to know, and in knowing some things he could no longer see the one everything. this is the original sickness which is called sin which is not to be confused with evil -- though it often is. it is this confusion which keeps us sick. it is this sense of free will which makes us think we have chosen to be sick. it is individuality, it is Godlessness, it runs deep in our culture, it is knowledge of good and evil, it is judgement of ourselves and others, it is opinion, it is language, it is the word which is God. why did God do this? was it for the play? for the joy of finding our way back to the union of the Everything? i don't know. but when i am with God, i remember the answer to this question. it is an answer i always seem to forget, and one that can't be recorded.
why is existance? i have never known anything so odd.
creation: rely on momentum. respond to material. make shapes, move your body. trust the urge to stop thinking. do not create anything. let it come through. it is already there. listen. don't listen. move. respond. it isn't yours, don't worry. start with a response to the essence of the material. let it work itself out. let God work Itself out.
ten plates, open bite, softground and markmaking. markmaking and shapes. material and shapes. becoming
be obsessive. build a hermitage. live in this. live like this again. go crazy again. yes this is sanity.
God Is Sanity Is Reality Is I Am. Now. Now. Now.
Three is the incarnation of One which is inaccessible without Grace which is Always Access. Now.
Three as One is language, is opinion and definition and limitation and necessary lies. all is necessarily founded upon lies which are Ultimately True.
all opinion is a lie, yes. all words are lies yes. all things are lies yes. and the Nonthing -- the source of Life -- is accessed through the lie of things. the things must be used. the opinions must be had. the choices must be made: live or die. each is better than inaction. inaction is a deathless death, is torture. inaction is the greatest lie of all. it is the lie of fear, the lie of evil, the lie of hell. it is not real. if you have chosen to die then do not delay. if you have chosen to live then do not delay. do something. it does not matter what. it does not matter. trust.